i had dreams about committing suicide last night. i jumped off a balcony but i was watching it from the other side and i could see myself falling closer and closer and finally i just saw my broken body lying on the sidewalk but my eyes were open and i was staring right at myself. i couldn't close my eyes and couldn't move.

before i jumped off the building in the dream i think i jumped out the window and my mom held on to me so i didn't fall the first time. but then she let go.

before that part of the dream i remember i got a pet dog and it was little and i lived in a one room apartment by myself with nothing but a bed and a balcony and people came over for a party but there was no room and it was really dark and there were two other dogs who were much bigger and better than my dog but i still loved my dog. and then my dog fell off the balcony but then it actually didn't because it was just a hill.